The Updrafts – Notes on Streaking

The Up Drafts is an ongoing series of essays and interviews that examine creativity, productivity, writing process, and getting unstuck.

BY NANCY REDDY

First of all, not that kind. When I’m talking about streaking in writing, what I mean is a sustained, regular commitment to a project or a practice. 

A streak could be an intense burst of activity over a shorter period or time, like National Novel Writing Month or Jami Attenberg’s #1000wordsofsummer. Or it could be lower intensity over a long period of time, like a year-long commitment to “touch” a project every day, whether that means writing sustained scenes into a novel or just tinkering inside the document. (Allison K. Williams gave that advice in a recent column on Jane Friedman’s website, “How to Restart Your Unfinished Book,” in which she suggests “touching” the project as a means of “gently renewing your interest and energy until you’re ready to write.”) 

You can define a streak in whatever way helps you. It could be a daily practice, or a target of x number of writing days a week. I shared previously that submitting one thing a week is a goal of mine for 2021, so I’m counting those submissions, week by week, as a streak I’m working to maintain. 

Whatever method of streaking you choose, what matters is the sense of accomplishment and momentum that builds up as you maintain a streak. 

I’m particularly interested in what happens when you write every day. A commitment to writing every day, even if it’s just a few lines or sentences, lets the project live in your brain in a different way, so you can carry it with you and work out problems and generate new ideas when you’re going about your day. I read a great interview with Kathryn Cowles recently, in which she talked about writing a poem in the same place every day – and ultimately, doing that for a year. Writing every day can also often let you go deeper and weirder. Some of the wildest poems in my first book were ones I wrote during poem-a-day groups I used to do via email with friends. If you’re writing a poem a week for workshop, or waiting to be seized by inspiration, it’s easy to feel like each poem should be good and purposeful. But if you’re writing every day, eventually you just have to get weird and let your brain do what it wants, and if the poems’ terrible, that’s fine, because you’ll write another one tomorrow. 

If this daily writing practice sounds good to you, I hope you’ll join me for a month of poetry prompts in April, as a celebration of National Poetry Month. I’ll send out a prompt via email early each morning, focusing on revision, process, and play. You can sign up here. The first post includes suggestions about how to prepare for a month of daily writing. If you’ve got a notebook full of little poem nubs or digital drafts of floppy poems and half-starts, the prompts will help you shape them into something new. And if you haven’t been writing, I think you’ll find that a month of streaking is just the thing to kick-start something new. 

 NANCY REDDY  is the author of Pocket Universe (LSU, 2022); Double Jinx (Milkweed Editions, 2015), a 2014 winner of the National Poetry Series; and Acadiana (Black Lawrence Press, 2018). She’s also co-editor, along with Emily Pérez, of The Long Devotion: Poets Writing Motherhood (UGA, 2022). Her poems have appeared in The Gettysburg ReviewPleiadesBlackbirdColorado ReviewThe Iowa ReviewSmartish Pace and her essays have appeared in Poets & WritersElectric LiteratureBrevity, and elsewhere. The recipient of a Walter E. Dakin Fellowship from the Sewanee Writers’ Conference and grants from the New Jersey State Council on the Arts and the Sustainable Arts Foundation, she teaches writing at Stockton University in New Jersey. 


The Magic of One Thing: What I Learned from Talking with Jessica Abel

The Up Drafts is an ongoing series of essays and interviews that examine creativity, productivity, writing process, and getting unstuck.

BY NANCY REDDY

I love a list. I love the buzzy hum I get from crossing through the items I’ve completed, and I’ve even been known to start my list-making by jotting down the things I’ve already done, just to get a little jump start of completionist satisfaction. So it seemed to make good sense that I could apply this same idea to get my writing done: make a big list of all the writing projects I’m cooking up, then let all the energy of those combined good ideas propel me toward the finish line. At various points in the last year, I’ve made lists of essay ideas, lists of magazines where I’d like to publish, lists of research projects, lists that start with the triumphant all-caps HERE ARE MY GOOD IDEAS. 

So why is it that, for a long time, I wasn’t actually taking those good ideas all the way through finished drafts? 

Talking with Jessica Abel, a Philadelphia-based cartoonist, author, and educator, whom I interviewed via Zoom, helped illuminate a major error I’d made. Though I’d named lots of goals, I hadn’t actually made any of them a priority. Abel, who coaches creative folks working on a wide range of projects, insists that you can only really have one priority at a time. And I’m a convert: since adopting her maxim that you need One Goal to Rule Them All, I’ve been able to start ticking items off that big list.  

I like to think of it as The Magic of One Thing. 

Abel explains it like this: when you have two or three or four (or a whole huge ambitious list) projects you want to work on, but you split your time between those projects, it’s hard to make any serious headway on any particular project. Your time is fractured, and so is your attention and your energy. In contrast, she argues, once you have just One Thing:

If you’re spending chunks of time all week on the same thing, your brain is going to be working overtime on it. When you’re in the shower: brainstorm. When you’re in the car: things are clicking together. Have your notebook or voice notes app handy. You will have ideas. I guarantee it.

The magic of One Thing, in other words, isn’t just the power of hour after accumulated hour on a project; it’s that each hour of work is actually multiplied by the way the project takes up residence in your brain – when you’re seriously working on a project, your brain keeps at it, even when you’re not focused on your computer screen or notebook, on adding words to the project.

I’ve also found, counterintuitively, that One Thing feels more urgent than several. When I write down four projects I’m going to work on during a week, I can poke at each one for a bit, probably make a bit of progress on each, and end the week without any real clarity about the outcome of that intermittent work. But if I name just one or two things–projects with clear milestones attached–I feel more accountable to myself.

And completing projects creates its own kind of propulsive energy. When I spoke with Abel, she called this the “dopamine hit” of finishing a project. That’s certainly something I’ve experienced in the last few months. When I pitched this column at the beginning of the year, I could feel the sticky goo of all my good unfinished projects following me around and weighing me down. (I don’t think I’m the only one! Abel told me that she’s seen people get stuck in two different ways. While perfectionism and fear of failure can be obstacles at the early stage of a creative career, people who’ve had some success and are getting offers to work on lots of projects often end up being overcommitted and not being able to make headway with any particular thing.)

Abel also had some advice about how to choose your One Thing. Her article on One Goal outlines the key principles, and Her What’s Stopping You checklist is a great place to get started in thinking about your creative life more broadly. 

If you’re really having a hard time choosing where to start, Abel suggests choosing “something that feeds your future self”–and letting go of projects that will lead you in a direction you don’t want to go. Many of us have half-finished projects we’re carrying around with us, and the time we’ve put into them can feel like an obligation to take them to completion; Abel calls that Idea Debt, and encourages the people she works with to focus their energy instead on completing the projects that will be most meaningful for them now and in the future, rather than the ones in which they’ve already invested a lot of time. 

For longer projects, One Thing often requires identifying milestones – carrying out X research, creating an outline, drafting the proposal, writing a chapter, and so on. Breaking up a project like this allows people to still have a sense of momentum and completion. 

Talking with Abel also helped me in my ongoing struggle to rethink the relationship between creativity and productivity. When I asked her how she thinks about productivity, Abel responded that most of the time when we talk about productivity, “it’s about literally producing stuff without any regard to what the stuff is. And to be more productive means to take the same amount of time and put more things in there.” While there are parts of our life where this might make sense – fold more laundry, answer more emails, and so on – Abel argues that creative work actually requires more blank space. Abel suggests the “really crucial reframe” of productivity culture and insists that we instead think about “creating margin, not about doing more stuff.” 

I wrote a bit about ways of tracking time and quantifying progress in an earlier column, and here, too, Abel had insight. She said that, if you’re invested in measuring your work, it’s preferable to think in terms of time, rather than word count. Abel says that “my experience shows that counting words tends to be not helpful. Because what’s the quality of the words?” Instead, she says she’s seen that just putting time back into the project can be enormously helpful. Even if you only have 15 minutes a day, she says that can be “a way to get yourself unstuck and get back in touch with your project.” (I’ll come back to measurement in a few weeks because this link between creative work and the capitalist language of outcomes and products is a current obsession of mine!) 

If you’re interested in learning more about Jessica Abel’s creative work, or her work with coaching folks who have gotten stuck in their creative lives, her website is full of helpful resources. I completed the Creative Compass Minicourse, and she frequently offers both free webinars and the paid Creative Focus Workshop. Even getting her email blasts functions for me as a kind of regular “hey you! What are you working on?” which is the kind of no-nonsense nudge I really thrive on. 

As Abel puts it, her work is less about creative productivity and more about “building a resilient and sustainable creative life.”

So what’s your One Thing? What project can you invest 15 minutes in today?

NANCY REDDY is the author of Double Jinx (Milkweed Editions, 2015), a 2014 winner of the National Poetry Series, and Acadiana (Black Lawrence Press, 2018). Her poems have appeared or are forthcoming in The Gettysburg ReviewPleiadesBlackbirdColorado ReviewThe Iowa ReviewSmartish Pace, and elsewhere, and her essays have appeared most recently in Electric Literature. The recipient of a Walter E. Dakin Fellowship from the Sewanee Writers’ Conference and grants from the New Jersey State Council on the Arts and the Sustainable Arts Foundation, she teaches writing at Stockton University. She’s working on a narrative nonfiction book about the trap of natural motherhood.

How to Make a Writing Life

The Up Drafts is an ongoing series of essays and interviews that examine creativity, productivity, writing process, and getting unstuck.

BY NANCY REDDY

I began this series wanting to think about what it means to be stuck in your writing. People get stuck for lots of reasons: a hard new project, rejection, fear of failure, lack of time. Jessica Abel, a creativity coach I interviewed for an upcoming column, says that people who already have a track record of creative success often get stuck because they commit to too many projects and get scattered. (Her “What’s Stopping You?” checklist might help you uncover the obstacles in your way.) Hannah Rule, a writing studies scholar who I interviewed for a previous column, describes freewriting as one way into generating new ideas, and she also described a more social approach to brainstorming, when she asks her students to pass papers around the room and comment on each other’s ideas for research projects. 

But sometimes I think being stuck originates in places outside the writing. 

I was really struck by poet and memoirist E. J. Koh’s description of this phenomenon: “It’s not that I’m stuck in my writing; I am stuck somewhere in my living.” When she’s stuck like this, she writes, “Then I do what I fear doing. I must make amends with my mother, or I must challenge my terror with flying, or I will do that thing I do not want to do.”

Koh’s piece made me think about the non-writing things that help me sustain a writing practice. They’re actually pretty simple: plenty of exercise and enough quiet space in my life so I can hear my brain work. Because my utter lack of hand-eye coordination made team sports and gym class torture for me, it’s taken me until well into my adult life to think about my body as much more than a house for my brain. But, like many of us, I have a brain that spins and spins, and I’ve found that a run goes a long way in bringing it back to a manageable hum. My sister, whose brain is similarly busy, has recently taken up meditation, and she recommends the UCLA Mindfulness app. (Apparently, my dad, who’s also taken up yoga in his late 60s, recommended it to her; may we all be so full of surprises.)

And exercise can also provide a space away from the computer or notebook to let my brain work on a problem. When I was at the Vermont Studio Center this past summer, I’d write inside my studio until I just couldn’t go any further, then go for a run along the rail trail; several days, as I moved, the problem I was working on unstuck itself as I passed over bridges and through fields. (I recommend using the voice recorder on your phone to capture those sentences, even if you look like an oddball talking to yourself in the middle of a trail or street.) 

I’ve learned, especially since having kids, that in order to be an even halfway decent human being, much less a writer, I need a not-insubstantial amount of time to myself– and I’ve learned that “by myself” means also the absence of digital distractions. When I walk to spinning or barre at the exercise studio in my little town, I leave my phone at home, and the quiet of that half-mile walk each way is truly restorative. (It also means that I can’t Instagram my early-morning exercise, which is good, because no one really likes those people, anyway.)

Other people have different answers to this question of how to make a writing life. At a recent event at the Penn Book Center, Carmen Maria Machado and Jaquira Díaz were asked about self-care and revealed that their practices both include therapy and sex. When I asked people on twitter, I was struck by how many people’s answers included nature, like novelist and poet Valerie Nieman’s comment about “hiking solo – the only voices are the ones in my head.” Twila Newey’s reply, that she refuels through “walking, reading, gardening, staring out windows, the beach, birds & the moon” made me think about the value of non-productive work, that what looks like staring or wandering is often actually part of the writing. And though defending “doing nothing” as a pathway to increased creative work might not be quite what Jenny Odell had in mind, I’m finding myself especially receptive to arguments for creating open spaces in our lives. 

So, if you’re feeling stuck, you might think about what practices or habits or breaks in routine–all the parts of your life that are distinct from but intertwined with your writing life–could help you get unstuck. As Hannah Rule points out, “writing isn’t contained in the mind or in the relay between mind and page; it rather romps all over–into cars, classrooms, night shifts, nurseries, showers, walks, laundry, chats, everywhere!” What do you need to make your writing life?

NANCY REDDY is the author of Double Jinx (Milkweed Editions, 2015), a 2014 winner of the National Poetry Series, and Acadiana (Black Lawrence Press, 2018). Her poems have appeared or are forthcoming in The Gettysburg ReviewPleiadesBlackbirdColorado ReviewThe Iowa ReviewSmartish Pace, and elsewhere, and her essays have appeared most recently in Electric Literature. The recipient of a Walter E. Dakin Fellowship from the Sewanee Writers’ Conference and grants from the New Jersey State Council on the Arts and the Sustainable Arts Foundation, she teaches writing at Stockton University. She’s working on a narrative nonfiction book about the trap of natural motherhood.


The Speed of Writing: An Interview with Hannah Rule

The Up Drafts is an ongoing series of essays and interviews that examine creativity, productivity, writing process, and getting unstuck.

BY NANCY REDDY

Hannah Rule is an Assistant Professor in the Department of English Language and Literature at the University of South Carolina, where she teaches graduate and undergraduate courses in first-year writing, writing and embodiment, a survey of composition studies, and the teaching of writing. I first came across her work in 2016, when I attended a panel at an academic conference of writing teachers and researchers, the Conference on College Composition and Communication Annual Convention, where she presented research that attempted to capture the writing process through video recording her own hands on her keyboard as she worked. This video– mundane as that may sound–was fascinating, and the image of writing captured in real-time, with all its pauses and backspaces and bursts of energy, has stuck with me for years. I think of it often as I’m sitting at my own keyboard, particularly when my own hands are still. Since then, she’s published articles that examine how writers interact with their writing environment, as well as how students use freewriting, and her book, Situating Writing Processes was recently published. The open-access version is available through the WAC Clearinghouse, and the print version is forthcoming from the University Press of Colorado.

Her new book, Situating Writing Processes, calls up an idea that many of us take for granted– that writing is a process and requires brainstorming, drafting, revising, editing–and makes it new again by considering the “physical, material, and located dimensions of processes.” In other words, Rule is interested not just in how writers get from ideas in their head to a finished product, but in how the physical world enters into that process. As she puts it in her article “Writing’s Rooms,” she’s interested in “the environmental minutiae of where writing takes place—the walls, desk, objects, and tools; the bodily movements, interruptions, and sounds of keys clacking.” Given how deeply Rule has thought about how writers actually write—where and with what materials and through which distractions and at what speed—I wanted to interview her to help me think more about writing and speed and how to get unstuck.

Reddy: My background in creative writing trained me to think of freewriting as a way of accessing the unconscious – something like the kind of automatic writing that the surrealists practiced. The more contemporary version of this is Julia Cameron’s “morning pages,” which Cameron describes as “three pages of longhand, stream of consciousness writing, done first thing in the morning.” Many of the people I know who do morning pages or who use other freewriting practices describe it as something like clearing their throat or running the rusty water out of a faucet until something drinkable comes out. I’m curious how you think about the purpose of freewriting in your own teaching? When you ask students to freewrite, what are you hoping it will do for them?

Rule: I think I’m about to take the scenic route here, but I promise I’ll get to the question of purpose! I became a Peter Elbow fan and eventual freewriting evangelist while I was working on my doctorate at Cincinnati. I was reading a lot of his work; I found his writing so alive and intellectually admirable (he has this way of thinking out loud in loopy but coherent fashion). Elbow’s own struggle with academic writing in graduate school was what led him to freewriting, as a matter of survival really – something to do when doing seems otherwise impossible. Just write and don’t stop. He also came to see freewriting as an antidote; he thought students’ language was deadened, flattened by school. Writers, he thought, should shed all outside influence, silence the noise of others, discover their thinking in their own words.    

I found freewriting enabling – in grad school I started writing emails to myself of utter freewriting nonsense about a conference or research paper I was drafting. I still do this. I “wrote” some beginnings and hard parts of my recent book in Google Docs, using the speech-to-text feature (because at times even physically typing felt too hard). I very much like having writing started (I am the living embodiment of that Dorothy Parker quote about hating writing but loving having written). My teaching mentors were always talking about and having us do freewriting too, so it became a big part of the composition classes I was teaching. I dutifully described to my students what freewriting was and what it did; I learned about directed freewriting and “center of gravity” to help students work with their freewrites.

I was always curious, though, about what my students were actually doing when I gave them freewriting instructions. I’d basically stare at them, sneak looks over their shoulders, examine their facial expressions, speak to them like a yoga teacher to urge them into a “free” state of mind. Are they really riding the waves of language or were they crafting sentences that answered my question, that satisfied my expectation? This is what lead me to my 2013 study of a freewriter and to affirm that that freewriting is far from natural, easy, or automatic. I think of it now more as an invitation, a deliberate habit. If it’s tapping the unconscious, it’s a repetitive, express, intentioned effort to do so. And we’re never free as writers, of influence or fear or others. So I find myself more actively these days trying to push writers to write on their toes, to subvert the assumptions they have for writing (especially writing in school, that it must be careful, developed, deliberate, correct). I tend to prompt freewriting-type exercises now more with pace (quickwrites) than with “freedom.”

Reddy: In your article on freewriting, “The Difficulties of Thinking Through Freewriting,” I was interested in the moments when you had to intervene to coach your student about what to write. It made me think about what we believe freewriting is doing – especially as opposed to other practices that might help us come up with or clarify ideas, like talking or doodling or visualizing, or even just thinking without committing anything to paper. Why is freewriting such a canonical part of invention, and why do you think talk is more often reserved for revision? Is this primarily about how we think about ideas, property, individual genius – or are there other things at play as well? (Perhaps there’s just not been a Peter Elbow of brainstorming chat, for example. ;)) 

Rule: Yes, more Peter Elbows! I think that part of the value of freewriting is in the volume of tries you get at articulation, the chance that you’ll discover a phrase or word that can be lifted out as a seed to continue growing in a draft.

And yes, I agree, freewriting and invention practices (like cubing or webbing) reinforce writing as a matter of words and individual brains in isolation. At the same time, many teachers of writing have stretched this idea for me – I’m thinking of Patricia Dunn’s Talking Sketching Moving: Multiple Literacies in the Teaching of Writing, Sondra Perl’s Felt Sense: Writing with the Body, Karen LeFevre’s Invention as a Social Act. I’ve definitely made invention more social, I think, recently: with my research writing students, I do an activity where we all write a potential research question on a sheet of paper anonymously. We pass our sheets, read what’s there, and add a totally different question or reframe one already written. We repeat this passing and adding many times. I compile the sheets as a book of potential, and we return to it in various ways as students eventually commit to a project. Mostly I like how this practice prevents students from deciding their direction too soon – often freewriting and other invention practices too quickly close off possibilities and crazy (good) ideas! 

Reddy: One of the things I’m trying to figure out across this series is what we mean when we talk about productivity in writing – and speed is certainly part of that. Part of the reason why your typing video stuck with me so much, I think, is that it really resonated with something I was trying to teach myself at the time – that writing actually isn’t typing, or that it’s not just typing. I often have to move from computer to notebook or post-it note, or get up and walk around until I can think better – and sometimes that thinking better takes actual time, like months or years. And part of what’s interesting about the freewriting protocol you describe in your article is that it does actually insist on some amount of speed, or at least fluency: writers are told to not stop writing, even if they don’t have anything to say, but to instead write something like “I don’t know what to say.” So I’m curious how you think about speed and fluency in writing, perhaps especially in freewriting or invention, but also across the writing process. What does your research show about the impact of continuing to just write, even if you don’t know what to say? 

Rule: In those hands-to-keyboard recordings, I think I was trying to see some of the most basic movement of writing but also, as you say, acknowledge how terribly limited that view is. Writing isn’t just in the space between fingers moving and fingers stopping. I’ve talked about this in my research with what I’ve called “romping.” Writing isn’t contained in the mind or in the relay between mind and page; it rather romps all over – into cars, classrooms, night shifts, nurseries, showers, walks, laundry, chats, everywhere! But romping is pretty antithetical to how we tend to picture productivity – when does writing as romping tip over into procrastination or avoidance?  

There is something to that freewriting mantra, just keep writing. But I think it’s in a wider-reaching momentum. There is this great book, Understanding Writing Blocks, where the author Keith Hjortshoj talks about writing as a nonstop invitation to stop: writers can stop at any time; they can stop after a sentence or word; after a bad review or an uncomfortable blocked session, or simply in favor of doing something else. Successful writers, Hjortshoj says, are those that have figured out how to stop stopping, to make a habit of not stopping. I think that’s brilliant. The trick is to first spin the plate of writing fast, and then keep it going.

So I’ve been thinking about the virtues of sometimes “hurrying up.” In writing instruction, going fast isn’t something we value basically at all. I mean, the whole paradigm of teaching writing as a process was the recognition that writers need more time, lots of time and space to draft and develop what they want to say and how to say it. But I think sometimes hurrying up is good! When I first start a project or revision, it’s best when I hurry up and start right away, without thinking about it. Avoiding delay makes continuing to write feel much less Herculean. In my classes, now I often time writing activities: I give a question I want to start discussion with, I ask students to turn to their neighbor and see if they can name two potential answers in 30 seconds. For invention in my personal essay class, I ask students to list 10 things that bother them in 60 seconds. The point isn’t if we can meet the goal; the goal is attempting to beat the clock. Writing feels weighty and serious, but I think this no-stakes hurrying can be a good way to trick us into creativity or into saying something we wouldn’t have otherwise.

Reddy: You’ve spent years and years now researching how other people write – and of course, you’ve also been doing your own writing all that time. Could you talk about your own writing process, and perhaps how researching process and the materiality of process has shaped how you write? And since this is a series in part about getting unstuck – what do you do when you’re feeling stuck in your writing?

Rule: One of the coolest results of my research is the responses. People have confessed things to me about the weird things they do, about what they can’t write without. I love thinking about this stuff. And certainly I have considered my own ways—I am, for example, a writer who needs minimalism whereever I am. I cannot bring myself to even deal with books I’m quoting (all of my reading has to be separate and compiled into notes).

I’ve also come to appreciate, though, that what we alone do as writers, or think we do, is only a tiny sliver of what’s going on when writing is emerging. Process is about habits, arrangement, curation but it’s equally about accidents, improvisations, making do, catching a little time to jot while we’re waiting on line or at the mechanic. Processes may be more reaction than ritual or control, more a team sport than a solo performance. 

Reddy: Now that you’ve completed your first book, what’s next? What’s happening in your writing life?

Rule: I’m recharging after the book! I’m also early on in a project on annotation as writing (rather than a private record of reading). And in my teaching, I find myself worried a lot these days, about the stakes of everything: how can we move the needle on information literacy, combat fraudulent news and misinformation, undermine the impoverished ways we “debate” online and in media, resuscitate evidence and agreed-upon facts? Who will tackle these issues if not writing teachers? 


NANCY REDDY is the author of Double Jinx (Milkweed Editions, 2015), a 2014 winner of the National Poetry Series, and Acadiana (Black Lawrence Press, 2018). Her poems have appeared or are forthcoming in The Gettysburg ReviewPleiadesBlackbirdColorado ReviewThe Iowa ReviewSmartish Pace, and elsewhere, and her essays have appeared most recently in Electric Literature. The recipient of a Walter E. Dakin Fellowship from the Sewanee Writers’ Conference and grants from the New Jersey State Council on the Arts and the Sustainable Arts Foundation, she teaches writing at Stockton University. She’s working on a narrative nonfiction book about the trap of natural motherhood.

Done vs Good: What I’ve learned so far about getting unstuck

The Up Drafts is an ongoing series of essays and interviews that examine creativity, productivity, writing process, and getting unstuck.

BY NANCY REDDY

Courtney Maum’s widely praised Before and After the Book Deal includes wisdom from writers, agents, editors, and more, including this terrifying bit from novelist Rebecca Makkai: “If you are 100 percent happy with your manuscript, it’s probably a sign that it’s bad.” (That is not where I thought that sentence was going to end!) She elaborates, saying, “It takes forever to write a manuscript. So when you finally get through it, you think, ‘It’s finally done!’ It’s not done. I wouldn’t send it out until you get the feeling that it’s finally—finally—done for the third time.”

I imagine this is a good way to produce a novel that’s a finalist for the Pulitzer Prize. But, applied more broadly, it’s an even more excellent way to just never finish your book. To perhaps never finish an essay or even a sentence.

It’s been a month since, inspired by the dread I felt at reading everyone else’s accomplishments and regarding my own moldering pile of drafts in various stages of generation and revision, I stood in my kitchen and worked up the idea for this series. I hoped that if I dragged my own bad feelings about my writing life up to the light via the magic of a biweekly deadline I’d be able to get myself unstuck. And I thought that sharing my struggle, as well as what I learned from interviewing and reading the work of other people who’ve studied creativity and the writing process would be valuable for others, too. 

So far, I’ve written a bit about productivity and accomplishment, and what all that end of year accounting might mean, and I shared my own struggles with ambition and why my first reaction when I won a big poetry prize was shame. I’ve got good stuff lined up – an interview with writing studies scholar Hannah Rule, who talks about the value and limits of freewriting, and the way that writing “romps all over – into cars, classrooms, night shifts, nurseries, showers, walks, laundry, chats, everywhere!”, and another interview with cartoonist, author, and educator Jessica Abel, whose insistence that you pick just One Thing as your creative priority has already helped me wrap up some long-term, seemingly intractable projects. 

I’d like to spend a minute here, one month into this project, thinking about how to get the work done. Rebecca Makkai’s words struck me so profoundly because they align to much of what I was taught in graduate school: revise, revise, revise; ask for feedback and then revise some more; assume that what you’ve done is never good enough. I get where this perspective comes from–but I also think it has the potential to be profoundly silencing.

For right now, I’m embracing an alternate approach: Elizabeth Gilbert’s pronouncement, in her book Big Magic, that “Done is better than good.” Those words come in a section of the book in which Gilbert discusses realizing, after she’d finished writing a novel, that a minor character was flawed. She realized she had two options: she could tear the entire novel apart and spend perhaps a year rebuilding it, or she could just call it a day. And she decided to publish the book, flaws and all. She had other books to write. The one she’d written was good enough, and out it went into the world. 

It’s an approach that likely sounds blasphemous to those of who came to writing under the austere star of Annie Dillard’s The Writing Life, which urges – on page 4, in my copy! – that, when you find the weak points in your work, “you must demolish the work and start over!” Had Dillard been writing Gilbert’s book, she would have ripped out that minor character, reworked the whole novel, and emerged from a cloud of dirt and detritus a year or two later, transformed. 

One thing that I’ve realized in writing this series is how much of my own stuckness is related to that imperative to perfect the work, which can be a laudable goal–and can also be a way of never quite doing the scary, hard thing.

Here are a few ways I’m focusing on getting to done in the coming months: 

One Thing: I’ll write more about this in an upcoming interview with Jessica Abel, but her focus on committing to One Goal to Rule Them All has allowed me to clear two really hard, messy projects off my desk. Abel insists that you can really just have one priority, and then buckle down and see that project through to completion. This doesn’t mean that there’s just one thing you want to do–just that you’re really only actively working on one project at a time. The post hyperlinked above is really helpful in clarifying what One Thing you should work on first. 

One realization that has made One Thing work really well for me is that it’s not just about what you’re “working on” but what you’re actually going to complete in a given period of time. So it’s not enough to say I’m “working on” an article this week– I have to commit to a particular measure or milestone for that project. Maum’s Before and After the Book Deal does a nice job of articulating three ways of thinking about milestones in writing projects: word count, time, and content (x section of a chapter, for example). Right now I’m in a content stage, but I’ve found both word count and time to be really helpful when what I need is to put brainpower into a project to see where it’s going. 

Connecting Goals to Time: The specific language for this comes from Kerry Ann Rockquemore’s series for Inside Higher Ed on productivity for junior faculty, but it’s applicable for creative writers, too. In this particular column, Rockquemore describes a practice she calls the “Sunday meeting,” during which you write out all your tasks for the week and consider the actual amount of time they’ll require. I’m really good at a to-do list, but moving from task to time has helped me to see how big projects can take shape in time. Towards the end of last week, as I was desperate to finish a scholarly article I’ve been working on for 6 months or several years, depending on how you count it, I looked at my revision notes and figured if I worked with serious focus for three more hours, I could knock it out. And I did. 

Moving forward, I’m writing my One Thing in my planner (the Get to Work Book; I adore it, and the 2020s are on sale now, if you still need a planner for the year) and noting how much time I think it will take. Then, as I work during the week, I record, right in the planner, how long I’m working on it and check my estimate against the actual total. It’s really helpful to see writing projects as finite and completable. 

Systems for Accountability: I’m a highly organized person. I love a task list, and I love a calendar. In most spheres of my life, I am what Gretchen Rubin would call an Upholder. But one thing I’ve realized is that, for this stage of my life and for the writing I’m doing now, I need more accountability, so I’m joining one of the writing groups run by my university’s Faculty Academic Writing Network. I won’t get feedback on my work, but what I will get is a regular writing date and the accountability of telling colleagues about my goals and the progress I’ve made. (And, bonus: I’m joining digitally, so I can do it my jammies, or what my longtime work-from-home husband calls his “work pants.”)

Since I’m talking about accountability, and I hinted in the last column about big, scary projects, I’ll name my current One Thing here: I’m going to finish the proposal for my narrative nonfiction book, a mix of personal experience and research into the trap of “natural motherhood.” I’ve been working on it for two years now, and I’ve done tons of drafting and researching and brainstorming and structuring – so now it’s time to move forward with the proposal. I’m clearing the decks so that I can finish it–a draft of it, at least–this month. 

I don’t know if, at the end of the month, it will be good. But I do know that, before it can be good, it has to be done.

NANCY REDDY is the author of Double Jinx (Milkweed Editions, 2015), a 2014 winner of the National Poetry Series, and Acadiana (Black Lawrence Press, 2018). Her poems have appeared or are forthcoming in The Gettysburg ReviewPleiadesBlackbirdColorado ReviewThe Iowa ReviewSmartish Pace, and elsewhere, and her essays have appeared most recently in Electric Literature. The recipient of a Walter E. Dakin Fellowship from the Sewanee Writers’ Conference and grants from the New Jersey State Council on the Arts and the Sustainable Arts Foundation, she teaches writing at Stockton University. She’s working on a narrative nonfiction book about the trap of natural motherhood.


Disintegrating Novels

I’m glancing at my noticeboard, at the numerous tasks I need to complete: four stories (three fiction, one personal essay) in various revision stages, three works in progress and my column. The noticeboard excludes other lesser duties: update my Tumblr blog, submit inane messages via Twitter, read my favorite blogs, read a book or two, catch up on my yearlong backlog of The New Yorker and clean up the files cluttering my iMac screen—the latter is now complete, so yay for me.

My phone and computer calendars neatly outline my weekly to-do lists; even after ten hours a day at work, I sit down and plug away, feeling submerged. Much is made by women—rightfully so—of finding time to write amid a chaotic life. I understand (to a point, I’m sure). I’m pulled toward the work, tugged by my lovely wife who’d like her husband back at some point this week. Even now, it is after 4 PM on a Saturday: we have a movie date later; I’m stressing, unnerved by the real possibility that my obsession with this writerly shit might result in a missed date, a rescheduled date, a date with the cold side of the bed.

I deal with extremes: when I don’t write, I can experience a dry spell for months (a year being the longest); on the other hand, when I get going, when I feel I’ve struck a groove, nothing can pull me away. I get angry and hoard my time, in part because I think I’ve wasted enough of it for so long, in part because there’s a hint of inferiority involved.  I blame The New Yorker. 20 Under 40 or whatever the fuck they titled it. Seven months until I’m thirty. I push. I deny myself sleep. I hurl myself into poor health, poor eating habits, chain smoking and depressive episodes: the opposite of this madness is a half-me, a cleaved personality closed off to the world. No one diagnosed me as bipolar, but my love for writing approaches the maniacal. Thank God we don’t have kids—just a whiny black Labrador.

I marvel at writers who fawn over the process, those individuals who carve koans out of craft, who imbue the work with the splendor of a nature hike. They’re aliens to me. Sometimes I call shenanigans on the love fest, because no one can possibly enjoy writing. Sure, they might enjoy writing about writing—Lord knows I do—and they get a rise from blogs and articles on procrastination, on query letters and searches for agents, of e-books and Amazon, of character sketches and Moleskines.

A culture of fellow writers romping through fields of daisies, traipsing along with commentary regarding the writing life, as if it’s a way of life as opposed to plain drudgery. I want to call them on their bullshit because the world offers more useful, more enjoyable activities: smoking weed, scouring Youtube for Sailor Moon clips, oral sex, bowling, shooting skeet (skeetskeetskeet). Perhaps I’m projecting my malady onto others; maybe writing is actually—you know—fun. Admittedly, it used to be fun when I wasn’t obsessed with control, with being deliberate in what (and how) I write, with authenticity, with the archeology that guarantees more visits to my psychotherapist. That’s not to say these happy writers, these pod people, aren’t trying hard enough. Maybe they’re well adjusted; if so, God bless them.

Or maybe they’re better at compartmentalization. Art seeps into all aspects of my life—just ask my wife behind me, impatiently waiting to start our date. There’s no right or wrong way to go about the work; there’s no such thing as “the writing life.” I can be accused of subscribing to the myth in the past, and I apologize for perpetuating it, but what the how-to guides and the Internet calls “the writing life” is a caricature of reality. It’s so simple: you can spend your entire life, and income, wanting to be a writer without scribbling a word. Even more insane is the notion of “wanting” to be a writer.

I mean, I am a writer—I want to be better, so I can be read—but why would anyone sit on the couch and think to themselves, “Of all the things to be; I shall be a writer.” I guess, on its face, creative writing appears easy. Shit, you go to the movies: anyone can write something better than the Big Mama’s House series. Perhaps that point is the tieback to those hippy, happy-go-lucky writers smiling toothy grins, turning the work into a faith-based initiative, a Zen-like experience, an otherworldly adventure. I’m more apt to believe writer-bloggers posting hopeless, tearful tomes about their disintegrating novels. I can understand the pain; that shit’s real. And when they fix the novel, when they’re back on track, they go silent—dead air—until reemerging with the details.

So fuck it. Some so-called writers are fraudulent and it pisses me off—clearly. I’m berating myself, racing against the clock, because the sun is gone and I’ve spent five hours writing five essays for this column so I can get back to a thirteen-page short story begging for a hatchet. And even if I succeed, I still got seven more pieces on my noticeboard, laughing at me with the husky chortle of Muttley, and in the face of all of this work, somewhere in my bitter heart, I’m happy. A small twinkle, a blip against the night; I’m still surrounded by maniacal mana and sometimes, I search the Internet (first mistake) for help on how to deal. Take a break, stretch your legs, treat yourself when you accomplish a goal: whatever, man—tell me to think positive thoughts, while you’re at it.

@thomasdemary. [at]thomasdemary.